i ended 2017 by having an awesome day with my wife and kids. i cannot complain.
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mike susz
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personally, i both made great strides, and suffered unexpected setbacks. mentally i’m in a better place than i was a couple years ago, but i’m now aware of how far i have yet to go.
mike susz
@mikesusz
my depression and anxiety has found new ways to manifest itself, in the face of all the progress i’ve made to realize and understand it.
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mike susz
@mikesusz
my hope for 2018 is to get a better grasp on how depression affects my life, to minimize its limiting affects on my happiness and my ability to improve this world.
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mike susz
@mikesusz
the most striking thing is how work issues affect me personally. my ability to be productive and useful is enormous to my self-image. my current job, as it’s (not) structured, does not help. at all.
mike susz
@mikesusz
whatever leadership i’ve been allocated is not reinforced or supported; it does not come with confidence or agency. i am someone to yell at when things go bad.
mike susz
@mikesusz
for someone in my situation this is possibly the worst case scenario; long experienced but not fully versed in latest tools/techniques/frameworks. where can i provide the most value?
mike susz
@mikesusz
i understand that being middle-aged and successful yet now needing to figure out how to stay relevant and provide value, is a preferable scenario. i do not expect sympathy.