as i continue to understand my depression and how it affects my life, i do a lot of reflection on the past, and events and relationships and how i participated (or chose not to participate) in them. i feel almost like, in order to move forward 1/5
Jun 24, 2019, 3:02 AM
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need to write a letter. like AA/12 steps. i need to make amends with people i wronged. not wronged per se, but didn’t react to or treat a person or a situation in the way that was expected. 2/5
Jun 24, 2019, 3:02 AM
i have fully ghosted former roommates, college friends, co-workers. i’ve kept distant. i’ve ducked out. i’ve not responded. at the time i didn’t understand why; i just snapped into a mode of self-protection. 3/5
Jun 24, 2019, 3:02 AM
for me, protection was isolation–not trust. retreating was my immediate reaction, and guilt over what i did/how it was perceived kept me away. vulnerability was a weakness. investing in relationships left me open to enormous let-down. 4/5
Jun 24, 2019, 3:03 AM
if you’re reading this now and have wondered what was “up with” me, well, this is it. i’m trying to do better every day. but i think i need to own up to my past before i can move forward. i’m sorry. i’m trying. 5/5
Jun 24, 2019, 3:03 AM
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